cooltyrant

so who's going to boycott this time :D :D :D

cos im not :D
 
 

i think this is appropriate.

6 months ago I decided to extend, and 2 weeks ago I decided not to. At that time there were several factors that led me to apply: lack of any future plans, the bleak-looking job market, plain laziness/inertia. It also helped that I was offered a contract that would put me on par with regulars for a full 6 months, as opposed to the normal extension terms.

But circumstances changed. I admit I was somewhat turned off by the sloppiness of certain parts of the system, and I felt that if I had to require intervention by my superiors, it was not worth staying since there was no guarantee that I could remain under their umbrella for long. Boredom also set in very quickly - I learnt that things never moved as quickly as I wanted them to.

People tried to convince me to stay, but obviously it has not worked. I told myself to get a move on because I was becoming entrenched and complacent, and what good would it do me? Even my CO agreed that I was not sufficiently occupied, and he even had a short talk with me where he suggested several things that I could do! So after completing my final Battalion-level project, I asked to go, just right before my direct boss flew off to Europe, so there was not much that the other regulars and fellow lieutenants to do to convince me to stay on.

Departing service at at time when almost everyone else has already left (and also in an evergreen unit where officers come alone or in pairs) feels strange, because there's no collective sense of celebration to bask in, only rounds of handshakes as you tell people their time will come and you will remember them for all the good things they have done. I think I never anticipated this day to come, and there was not much buildup in the days back at base because life was quite humdrum. To put it simply, I was not suffering enough to want to leave ASAP. So it was a rather peaceful affair, except for the part where I punched the hole in my card and there was a bit of a mock fuss. ^O^

I had a discussion with Fish, Leech, Tristan and Ryan about a week ago, we were debating whether the past two years had any value in them. Of course there were both good and bad experiences, and I guess I was fortunate to be posted to an unexpected place, and things took a much more positive turn after the one year mark. Aside from military and technical knowledge, it was really about learning about other people, and finding your own depths and limits (which I must say, I'm quite dissatisfied with). Whether it was necessary to be put in such conditions to learn about such things at such an age, we couldn't come to a conclusion.

At least, now I think I'm more sure of who I am and who I want to be. That's more important than where I end up, because it's the thing that I have better control over in the long run. That's where the certainty lies.

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Plans until Aug 10:

• Teaching assistant back at school
• Climb Kilimanjaro sometime in late Feb
• Get my driving license
• Read omnivorously to the point that I will regain a fraction of my thinking ability

Gatherings are coming up, it's that time of the year again. Please don't let it rain on the 27th. =.=

okay people. please please please hope i pass my driving test tomorrow at 1015 at *&#$@ ubi with the crazy lorries and vans and taxis and operating bus lanes. ): the past three days have been really good, but it just has to work for another 30 minutes and my angst over this entire episode would be over. if not, i'll have to repeat the entire process again come june without the parking poles!! can you sense the despair.

no more showers with dirty water up to my ankles; filtering water; cleaning up the basin; walking in the cold; wrapping and unwrapping the multiple layers;snacking; worrying about the traffic. and hello to green leafy vegetables; cooked warm food; FISH and good meats in general; clean beds; clean room; big tables; great company.

BOY I SURE AM GLAD TO BE BACK.

太空战士

is Final Fantasy translated to Chinese. Weird, yes!? I never did understand.


On the other hand, it looks like I won't be getting the R2 (japan) version of this, it'll be R3 (asia). Makes it difficult to swallow, for collector's like me, but I should be happy.

BECAUSE IT'S SAVING ME APPROXIMATELY 300-400 BUCKS.
But why do I still feel unsatisfied? -________-

so i was at my granny's today and i had the most epic conversation with my nephew.

me: ethan 你喜欢狗吗？
ethan: 喜欢！我不怕小狗！我属狗！
me: 你属狗啊？爸爸leh。
ethan: 爸爸属狮子。。啊不是，爸爸属老虎。
me: then 妈妈 leh？
ethan: 妈妈属。。妈妈属蚊子。
me: 妈妈属蚊子?!?!?!?!?!??!?! 我leh？
ethan: jayce 姑姑属 er。。属桌子 :D
me: *in a state of wtfness*
uncle: jayce 属桌子 then 我属椅子啦！

i have never laughed so hard in my entire life i nearly kinda died. everyone too actually. and he was like WHY EVERYONE LAUGHING face. omg super cute.

and then cousin and i were looking through my japan pictures and he was like 我没有去过这里！... 这里也没有去过！basically for every single picture he announced that he never went to that place and i was dying at how cute he is.

need to get married soon with min and have awesome kids like that.



AND HAPPY XIAHDAY!


may you two be like that again soon ^^

I am sad. :( Immensely sad. :( ok not immensely, but still, more than a little.
Seriously though, I just met VERNON who was selling laptops at FUNAN while hanging around with BLYN and YARN
And then I saw it, the FUGLY SHINY HUGE laptop which looks so similar to mine, yet pulsating with a different energy that belied its varying potential.
There it lay, as repulsive and yet wonderful as the one laptop YOUR HUMBLE WRITER is currently blogging on while watching LIVERPOOL playing in a retarded manner in a KOPITIAM, the N81VP!!! which was not supposed to be in SG.
For those who do not know about this yet, I, the fucking unlucky ALFRED GOH, bought the N81VG just three months ago for $1500, a great price at that time ($200 less than quoted) with loads of freebies.
Now, I love my fat and ugly and power hungry laptop muchly, and I swear to god it has nothing to do with the similarities it shares with me, but there it was, seducing me with its glare, the superior breed with the ATI RADEON 4670 GRAPHICS CARD, which outdoes my current's NVIDIA GT120M by 20%. :(
and the worst thing is, AT THE PRICE OF FREAKING $1300, and this was before negotiation by paying of CASH instead of NETS which would have undoubtedly lowered the price to $1200.
The past 3 months of usage has cost me $300 and a better Graphics Card, brilliant really, ESP CONSIDERING MY MUM HAS BEEN HOGGING MY COM TO PLAY AUDITION AND RESTAURANT CITY, MY LAPTOP HAS BEEN POLLUTED, IT HAS LOST ITS INNOCENCE AND CHARM. :( see, I have every reason to be sad.

On a brighter note though, I found my MISSING IDENTITIFICATION! which i last saw 6 months ago. Reported missing, for which the report i subsequently misplaced as well. I found both items in an innocuous compartment in my wallet. Hence, saving me a grand total of $216 dollars in fines and processing fees. ._.''' I FEEL RICH!
Now if only someone would start paying me to coach debates. I mean, I love debates, its become such an integral part of my life that I can't imagine living without it, BUT I ALSO NEED TO FEED MYSELF?
Here I am, in the best period of my life, fresh out of the army, just finished my A lvls, I SHOULD BE HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE! Not getting bugged by every single fucktart who keeps asking me to find A FREAKING JOB!
I KNOW I HAVE TO FIND A FREAKING JOB GODDAMNIT, BUT CAN"T I HAVE A LITTLE TIME TO MYSELF?
Charity is fine, but sometimes the way people are, I can't even tell whether its appreciate or all a futile attempt which only serves to breed discontent against myself. I NEED A BREAK! :(

Life goes on, PFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTT. KNNBCCB!
At time of writing LIVERPOOL PLAYING LIKE A COCK TEAM and BENITEZ SENDING ON NGOG AND (THE ETERNALLY RECOVERING SAVIOUR). Lets just hope ARSENAL scores two own goals in 10 mins, since i doubt anyone from LFC is going to.
SENTOSA HERE I COME :D

my coach is coming in 4.5 hours to pick me up and SEND ME HOME (indirectly) YAAAAAY. SO EXCITING. I spent the wonderful sunny day having cake and skyping and buying presents and thinking of home. and right now i'm staying awake watching my socks dry on the radiator so i can keep them. like literally watching clothes dry. so boring. glad that peripheral activities are keeping me awake even though i should honestly be sleeping. OMGOMGOMG.

I'M GOING HOME.

i came with overweight luggage and that is how i'm returning. it's good to have come full circle in two months. i'll rest and prepare for the rest of the months ahead knowing that i've enjoyed a good month back where i love.

what's the definition of homesick?

anyway.

MY POT CAUGHT FIRE TODAY. don't ask me how it happened. it just went *POOF* and suddenly it was on fire. i was stunned LOL. i suppose the pot became too hot for the butter (which turned black) and then it suddenly caught fire OMG i was like O.O whut?! and ran out of the kitchen. LOL. and people are in utter disbelief i actually made it happen. I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS POSSIBLE TOO. HONEST.


hey boy, missed your smile..

BoA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I Went To ViVocity To Watch Ninja Assassin With My Friend. She Wanted To See Joon Act As The Younger Version Of Raizo, The Ninja That Rain Acts As.

The Whole Show Was So Bloody, She Kept Saying She Didn't Want To Watch It. It Was Quite A Stupid Show Actually, Most Of The Time It Was In Darkness Because Ninjas Take Out The Lights Before Assassinating Their Targets, So The Fights Were Done In Inky Blackness. Occasional Flashes Of Light Only Served To Reveal Gouts Of Blood Spurting Left And Right. What The Hell.

After The Show We Went To This Place Called Serenity To Eat Tapas, Apparently It Means Snacks In Spanish. I Had Croqueta de Pollo Which Is Spanish Chicken Croquet, And Peras Al Vino Tinto, Which Is Pear Poached In Red Wine Served With Vanilla Ice-cream. My Friend Refused To Take Photos Of My Food So I Got No Pictures To Show. Sucks.

My Friend Was Angry At The Waiter Because She Thought He Thought She Look Old. Then She Thumped The Table And Exclaimed, "I AM A KILLING MACHINE!"

English Is Not My First Language That Is Why I May Sound Like A 5 Year Old Child. Am I Doing It Right?

today was random day out with sen_1209 and lovelandd. lots of nonsense when sennie and i decided to go out. HAVENT EVEN COOKED MY PASTA so i rushed it and made a mess out of it and probably poisoning my brothers and STILL ended up late. but sennie was late too! we caught *surpruse surprise* NEW MOON. in which we were complaining and laughing and rolling our eyes and having a good chat during the movie cos the amount of corn and cheese that came out of everyone's mouths were too much for us. and we ran out of the theatre the moment the show ended cos we were both late LOL.

so then angel and i caught 'an education' and it was witty and meaningful and thought-provoking and WAYYYYYYYY better than new moon. and they spouted random french words that i managed to pick up so i was like 8D and they have nice british accents.

so yeah the show made me change my opinions about happily-ever-afters. not saying that its a bad thing but yeah D: happily in love =/= happily ever after imo. OH WELLS.

TIMBRE TMR WITH THE GIRLS 8D 8D 8D WHEE.

What if... you have 2 choices that will change your life forever?
One, go to Oxford University, gain a degree and have a successful life in the future.
Two, marry a man you love so much and have a happily-ever-after life that you've been craving for.
Which one do you choose?

actually its a movie that i've been wanting to watch, but i would just like to get to know my flist more, so yeah LOL random.

( answer )

(yes blatant Bleach reference)
My figurine arrived yesterday, and photos were duly taken. Enjoy my novice photography skills, hampered by time constraints too!

FATE TESTAROSSA HARLAOWN in True Sonic Form. (she is massive)

Bare handed:




with Riot Zanber: (had no time to attach the energy trails linking the two blades together)







with Bardiche Assault Riot Blade: (giganto sword!)




Close ups: